I grew up with a plan for how I thought my life would go and what I thought would make me happy. I earned good grades, received my college degrees, married the love of my life, and spent five years working hard for a great company. I seemed to keep checking off boxes that I set for myself at a young age. I followed my plan and achieved my goals. On paper, I should have been happy. I wasn’t, and that made me uncomfortable. I thought something was wrong with me, and I didn’t know how to fix it. As I was focusing on this, my husband received the job opportunity of a lifetime, and we moved across the country to chase his dream. For the first time in my life, I was starting over on a path that I hadn’t carefully thought out or planned. It was the best thing that could have happened to me.
Shortly after our move, we took a trip to Glacier National Park in Montana. I snapped this photo from a lakeshore in Many Glacier on a day I was feeling very ill. I was so upset that I couldn’t join the group for our hike that day, and I felt anxious about being sick in an unfamiliar place. On top of that, I was still anxious about the spur of the moment move we made and what I was going to do with my life. As these thoughts raced through my mind, I sat and stared at this gorgeous mountain all day. I started to realize that I was ruining a beautiful experience for myself because I couldn’t seem to live in the moment. I was obsessing over things that I could not change (especially with no internet access or cell reception). What started out as an anxious day turned into a beautiful moment where I paused. I breathed. I appreciated the moment and the beauty in our world. I promised myself I would start doing more of that.
In this new adventure, I am learning who I am and not defining myself by my accomplishments. I am exploring my soul. I am living in the moment. I am finding what makes me happy and healthy.
Join me. Share your stories along the way, and I’ll share mine.